Healing...

I slept in today. Tanner slept in today. Jeremy slept in today AND is staying home from work. We decided that we needed one day that we could spend together after our really horrible week. It is 12:30 and we are just now stirring.

Our tally of "Lost" Items stands as thus:

Our beautiful girls Chloe and Nugget whom we will miss more than we can say.

For those of you who I haven't talked to this week, our outside dogs got Parvo within the last two weeks or so. We noticed Chloe wasn't feeling well on Friday of last week, we immediately isolated her and began treating her, but Monday morning at about 1:00 AM she passed. As we doctored Chloe this weekend, we kept a close eye on our other dog Nugget, Tanner's golden lab. Monday night we noticed the first symptoms. Both she and our new puppy Truffles went to the vet on Tuesday to be tested. Truffles tested negative, Nugget did not. She fought hard as did we, but we lost her yesterday morning at 6:20. Tanner is devastated. Mommy and Daddy are heartsick.

Which brings us to the next three "lost" items.

Sleep...countless hours of it. One of us was up every hour giving medicine. And if we weren't on medicine duty, then we were still up, fretting.


Tears...Lots and lots of them. Parvo is terribly debilitating, and it happens so quickly.

Our sanity....like it wasn't going anyway

And the final thing that makes our list of things lost this week is....ALL of our fish. All four of them died last night, or this morning. We're not really sure when it happened. In short, it's been one of THOSE weeks.

Today is our day of rejuvenation. We're going to play and cuddle and soak in all the love that we can possibly give each other. Tomorrow we can go back to everything else that waits for us, but today...we heal.

PANIC...and Chicken pox!!!!!!!!!

Today, I received my second heart stopping call in my journey of motherhood. It was 4:44 p.m...about 30 minutes before I go and pick up Tanner, when the phone next to my desk rang. Only two people call on this phone. Babs always sends me an instant message before she calls so that just left Tanner's teacher Sabra. It was indeed her. Our conversation went something like this.

Sabra: Hi Juli, it's Sabra. How are you today.

Me: Oh, I'm really good, I'm glad the day is almost over.

Sabra: Me too. I was just calling to see if Tanner's ok.

Me: (confused) What do you mean??

Sabra: Well, he's not here today, so we just wanted to make sure he was feeling alright.

Me: (10 times more confused than before) What??

Sabra: (silence)

Me: (heart stopping and dropping into floor, bile rising in throat and hands shaking) What do you mean he's not there???

Sabra: Ummmmm....well maybe he is here today and I just haven't seen him. I had to teach the three year old class today.

Me: (Panic taking over every ounce of my body and desperately trying not to scream or cry) Can you please check right now and let me know.

Sabra: Yes...............(LOOOOOOOOOONG PAUSE while she checks)............................................. Oh Juli, I am so sorry, he's here.

I don't really remember the rest of the conversation, I just know that I hung up, and bowed my head on my desk and sobbed for ten minutes. Then I threw up. I have never been so frightened in my entire life, I honestly felt my world stopping. After I had collected myself and washed my face, I went and got my son who is now sitting next to me on the couch where he belongs. He is fine, I am fine...WE are fine. Although, I am not quite sure if the spots that have appeared on his tummy and back are a LOT of bug bites or the beginning of chicken pox. Heaven help me, I don't know if I can take another panic attack this week. Pray for my sanity folks, I just might need it.


UPDATE*******It is DEFINITELY chicken pox...I need my Mommy.

Just want to share....

I have some pics I need to download of our fun weekend in Anthony with Mom and Dad. But I wanted to brag a little bit on my Dad, who took this AWESOME picture of my favorite little guy while we were at the lake. Tanner was standing on the bank (feeding the fish an ENTIRE box of Sun-dried tomato and Parmesan crackers) and he got a great shot of him looking out at the water. I got a little creative with the picture HERE.

Isn't it gorgeous?? Thanks, Dad for always catching the perfect shot!!